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October 29

I want a better me

  刚刚都写了好几百字的MSN处女作日志,被电脑一休眠整没了,呜呜,····

  那现在这篇应该是第二篇日志了,刚刚的第一篇大体是回顾自己自九月份开始准备申请以来,laborious but not effective 的工作,主要原因是没有很明确的目标,且执行力不强,然后笔锋一转,本要引出主题“I want a better me”,但是突然因为电脑自动休眠(因为昨天才重装过,联想自带的奇怪的省电模式还搞不定),一下子全没了,哇,真想揍它。

  似乎现在的我比较容易急躁,发火,或沮丧,失落;很多时候,一点小事就能让我不安起来;然后,经常觉得有无限的希望和同样无限的失望。情绪似乎较敏感脆弱,自己也觉得很痛苦,想控制好自己的情绪,但有时真的没有那么强的自控能力。有时,我会想起YU,想起他MS什么时候都强大的自控能力,不惊不乱,会觉得有点受感染,安点心。好多次心情不好,打电话时在电话里拿他出气,他竟然还是不慌不忙,或者麻木不乱,我总骂他冷血。但不管怎样,他每次还是会打电话来听我讲难听的话,也许,thanks a lot。


  我真的不想以自己现在这种心态和效率继续接下来的日子,正如题:I want,a better me, really eagerly,really
earnestly and sincerely.

  有时,我想的明白一些大道理。我知道:whatever, there are always some obstacles in life, and that is exactly the truth of the life.所以,never be frustrated by them, at least not be frustrated too long,let them be, and focus on the more important things, which real worth time and thinking.希望我能心态再好一点。

   写这篇中英文混杂的日志,谨以暴露一下自己的劣性,算是书面检查;顺便倾泻下现在的生活中的痛苦。看了下时间,写第一篇加这一篇,总共用了1个小时50分钟,字数不多,但想起这些日子的酸甜苦辣咸,感触不少。不过,我确实应检查下自己的效率问题。

  Hope,better.
  Believe, better.
                                                                                           enaJ
                                                                                       09.10.29 于华家池


 

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Guanhong Xiewrote:
恩,妇唱夫随^_^
Nov. 5
Kreanu Yuwrote:
我要是乱了,就陷入互相无限怜悯中,大家都无法自拔了。
其实我也想说难听的话啊,哥都忍了,你要感激我,哈哈
Oct. 30

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